[Crying in H Mart] # Ch 6: Dark Matter

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[Review previous expression]

• Every night I whine about my Ph.D. life to my boyfriend as if I were tattling on my brother for neglecting me.
• I yearned for my mother to speak to me but tried to appear stoic, knowing full well my constitution was much weaker than hers.
  • I yearned for all the professors who received my application to reply to me back but tried to appear stoic, knowing the job market had been competitive since COVID-19 ended.
  • [chatgpt] I yearned for a response from all the professors who received my application, but I tried to appear stoic, knowing the job market has been competitive since COVID-19 ended.

to land a slot at the conference 

I landed a slot for my presentation at the conference.

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[Summarize this chapter]

• [과거 버전] Once she discovered her mother got sick, she tried to change her lifestyle to be a good daughter. Unfortunately, until then they had a home she will be okay. The author was worried about the relationship with her father without her mom because they were not used to spending time together since she was a kid due to his business.
• We have a famous idiom. We have to care for our parents when they are alive. Likewise, after she noticed her mother's diagnosis, she fantasized about how well she could become a good daughter. As things stood, her life as a juvenile teenager only hurt her mother, but she thought she could make up for it at this time.
• [Chatgpt] There's a well-known saying that we should care for our parents while they are alive. Similarly, after learning of her mother's diagnosis, she began to imagine how she could truly become a good daughter. Up until then, her actions as a rebellious teenager had only caused her mother pain, but she believed that now was her chance to make amends.

Recognizing she wasn't the ideal child, the author eventually realized the importance of reciprocating the love and care to her mother. To accomplish this, she made a concerted effort to return to Eugene and dedicated herself to learning how to prepare Korean dishes.

 

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[Expression I want to use oneday! ]

a people please

came into view

to make amends for

All the burdens I'd imposed as a hyper active kid

vitriol I'd spewed

She broke into the laughter

regale == please

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[New Expression]